Alone in the Crowd

There is a difference to being alone and feeling alone; one is welcoming, the other hurts.
This is dedicated to all those that are hurting.

Living alone can be a wonderful thing
The peace and quiet can make a heart sing
Tranquillity of silence can help a mind rest
And the soul’s solitude can bring out one’s best

But companionship is what many need
To feed the love in one tiny seed
That grows inside and warms the soul
Without that love, it leaves a hole

The homeless, elderly and infirm
And others who need carers long term…
Soon find heartbreakingly that those who care
Are more often than not, paid to be there

Professional distance is required by those
And even though friendship grows
Between the carer and their client
It is mostly due to the latter’s reliant

Professionals can’t replace true friends
On which a love starved soul depends
To grow that seed deep within
And fill that hole to the brim.

Social media can help too
And always brings friends anew
But people there can be shallow
They’ll pierce your heart like an arrow

If they decide to unfriend or block
Their sudden departure can be a shock
No warning, reason or even rhyme
No way of fixing it in time

No clue of what you’ve done wrong
They treat you like a passing song
Some minor interest till the tune ends
Then that’s it, goodbye friends

And even those that remain close
And always say to you, kudos
Their seemingly perfect life
Cuts your solitude like a knife

They mostly show the good, not bad
Which can drive a person mad
Not in temper but insane
How are they winning in this game?

Perfect family, friends and life
Perfect husband, perfect wife
Perfect kids well behaved
Perfect pets, all well trained

And yes we’re always happy for them
We definitely would never condemn
Their perfect lives so very blessed
But it shows our lives depressed

We question where we went wrong
We don’t really feel we belong
Happily single, but no family
No closest friends to visit or see

We rejoice others and celebrate their lives
Brothers, sisters, husbands and wives
Yet watching others thrive force us to compare
And reveals lonely lives filled with despair

Living alone can be a wonderful thing
The peace and quiet can make a heart sing
Tranquillity of silence can help a mind rest
And the soul’s solitude can bring out one’s best

In this world of people, one massive crowd
We want to scream and yell out loud
Stop messing with us with emotions gloved
All we really want is to be loved.

© – Carol Nemes