Forever Hurt

You were my angel, my mother, my sister, my best friend

I thought we’d always be together till the very end

I was always loyal, no matter what, I’d stuck by you

I always believed that our friendship was forever true

When others mentioned only bad, I defended you every time

But it appeared to me that defending you to others was a crime

As years passed, you lost interest, I was no longer in your crowd

It seemed no matter what I did, I could never make you proud

Your words were more hurtful with everything you’d say

I felt more like the fawn which the deer had pushed away

I wanted to love you, so very very much

But my heart could no longer rely on you as a crutch

I could only see the hatred in your eyes

I constantly prayed this was just a guise.

You wanted me to let go and not rely on you

You probably guessed I’d die if anything happened to you

And in a way I did, I die a little more each day

Ever since you left me and gone on your way.

I know you are looking down at me from heaven above

I know you are still close to me, your eyes filled with love

But it’s your past Earthly actions that still hurt me to this day

Just know I’ll always love you, anyhow, in every way.

© – Carol Nemes

This was written in response to the #NovemberNotes challenge.

Today’s inspiration was Don’t Speak – No Doubt