Unprepared

I loved you, I hated you, I wanted you dead

You hurt me deeply with all that you said

The feeling was mutual you hated me too

But secretly you loved me, that I knew

Our relationship was rough, we fought every day

There seemed no mending it, no how, no way.

The older you got, the less in common we had

I still knew anyway, our love was ironclad

You would find different ways to push me away

And I’d had enough, I was ready for you to leave me one day.

My wish was granted when Cancer took over our fight

Before I knew it, you were gone in one night

I was unprepared for you to be forever gone

I’m sorry, so sorry, I want you to come home

These many years past, my heart still breaks for you

I’m not the same anymore, holidays leave me forever blue

© – Carol Nemes

This was written in response to the #NovemberNotes challenge.

Today’s inspiration was Too Good at Goodbyes – Sam Smith